| Location | Blackpool |
| Age | 44 years |
| Date of Birth | 12/1962 |
| Date of Death | 4/2007 |
| Visitors | 9,553 since 01/05/2007 |
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This is our big brother, he will always be remembered as being just "bernie" to myself and my
younger brother David.
Bernard Hamer 8th December 1962 - 28th April 2007 00.50am
Died age 44 years young.
My big brother bernard has been taken far too soon without a goodbye. And its on this website I
share my feeling emotionals and tributes to my brother without prejudice to anybody and its not my
intention to hurt or upset anybodt, but feelings are feelings and we all hurt because of Bernie's
death.
I have used some of your photos on this website to show everybody photos of Mike Jenny Jack Ethan
Megan Joshua and Ben, I have no photos of Jessica or Daniel I am sorry.
Bernards inquest was held on 25th October and the verdict was "Misadventure".
Cause of death *Poisoning by alcohol and Citalopram*
Bernie was a binge drinker and could go on real benders but he never took pills when he was drinking
daily which he drank alot of cider towards the end but his liver was not damaged in anyway, all his
organs were ok.
Your funeral was Monday 14th May at 2pm at Agecroft in the place where all our family have rested.
I think your at peace, but I will never know. you will be our dad Bernard Martin who sadly died by
taking his own life. Bernard has gone to spend the rest of eternity with our dad Bernard Martin.
I wished I had one chance to share my feelings with you face to face rather than like this, I came
to see you to say goodbye, I still cannot accept your gone. I cannot think of you without feeling
sad.
Life is not fair sometimes and you should not be where you are, you should be on the beach with the
kids having donkey rides, laughing and sharing the good times, or going to the bookies chewing pens,
one of your favourite annoying pastimes!!
Our dad Bernard Martin died by his own hand of suicide on January 15th 1973, He was 30years old
Bernie was 10years old when dad hung himself by a tree in a local school ground in Swinton.
Dads family never told my us about our dads death. We sat and read in the journal whilst living in
Clifton Drive in Swinton. Bernie always asked our mum why did ouir dad hanged himself. We were
aware of some letters that dad wrote before he died, but we never got to see them. Nobody ever gave
bernie or I the answers he so desparately needed to know. The fact was I didnt blame our mum for our
dads death I was younger than Bernie, but he always blamed our mum for dads death and that was sad
that she had to deal with that because it wasnt really fair.
Bernie over the years never came to terms with dads death, and I remember one of his own suicide
attempts he believed that he had seen our dad in the cremetery in walkden shouting him. Bernie
arrived home that night to mum and I, we ended up at the hospital. Bernie suffeered depression on
and off during his life and I believe dads death didnt help him he lived with not knowing for all
his life.
Bernards paranoia was his own worse enemy, and when he was down and depressed it was awful, it was
heartbreaking to see him sometimes. The times mum and I have ended up on hospital after he has tried
and failed to commit suicide is scary. Pressure was bad when we young, Bernie's seeked attention in
the wrong way. I remember him being in hospital on Christmas Day along time ago and not wanting to
see mum or I, how heartbreaking was that he must have been so drugged up he didnt know what was
going on.
I really wish bernie had contacted one of us before he died I cannot accept he mixed the substances
together, I had since found out he was in money debt and did this influence him?? that we will never
no. Something must have trigged this off and I believe we will never know the truth, I suppose I
accept I only know what I am told but it is a question that should have been anwered months ago.
Its sad that when you lose somebody in death the grief is hard to deal with, and 20 years ago when
Bernie was attempting suicide I was dealng with it in a better way. Now is not so easy as I do not
know the real reasons behind Bernie death and we know we will never find out and even if we did
would we believe it??
I still today coming up April 2008 one year after his death, do not accept Bernie death, I keep alot
of my feelings to myself and dont open up to many people, I wish I could but I cant its hurts too
much. I just wish he had made one phone call even if it had been to mum and he had not seen her for
over 3 years before he died. In that period of time Bernie had changed alot he drank and he gambled
as we know thats what bernie did before. But something different he had changed into somebody we
really didnt know and we had not been given the chance to know.
I ask myself would Bernie have really wanted to die?? did he leave a note?? we dont know and he knew
the tragic circunstances of our dad death that the "not knowing" was hardest thing to deal with,
questions run a mock in your head, WHY did he do this, what pushed him to? I believe Bernie did
take all those tablets and the drink and I believe in my own mind that he wanted peace... But why
leave a 16 week old baby????
I didnt attend Bernie inquests for reasons I do not wish to go into, at 42 years old I had been
informed third hand information which I believe was used a tool to cause distress and hurt. It was
Bernie's inquest and it was turned into a circus and a way to hurt people. Something that happened
42 yrs ago had nothing to do with this. Its sad at what some people will go to at length to cause
upset.
I got married 9th June 2007 I know you where there with my dad and James. I love you all very much,
Dave was there we shed a tear as you well know because somewhere in that room you were watching.. we
all felt sad dancing to your song and crying holding each other, looking at our photos of you and me
as kids next to our cake. You played a part in the service, Gary and Becky did you proud they shared
your memoires with over 60 guests, which left tears of you and James in everybodies eyes.
Rest in peace, my questions are stil not answered and I love you all the same, memories will stay
with me until one day we will meet again.
Bernard you are loved so much and this site is my tribute to your self with us and I share my love
and respect for you for all eternity.
On 28th April 2007, Bernie was in a sad sad place and what was going through his mind is scary and I
wish he had asked somebody for help, nothing is so bad that it cannot be resolved.
Only Bernie now knows the truth I sincerely hope my big brother is at peace, no more depression no
money tormention of his soul wanting answering to questions. His paranoia of life ended that sad
night and life as we know it will never be the same again.
Bernard Hamer - 8th December 1962 - 28th April 2007
Bernard Martin - 4th march 1943 - 15th January 1973
I hope you both are at peace you have both waited a lifetime for your souls to meet again. I cannot
change anything that has happened i wish you hadnt left us all.
I miss my brother and wish we all knew the truth and just one question for me would be WHY.
Pauline x
Gary & Becky xx
Dave x
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♥«´¨`•°Bernard¨`»♥
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MY FAMILY
My family don't know I'm watching them
But I'm watching them just the same.
And I hear each tear falling on their face
At the mention of my name.
They says it sounds like music to their ears
And can be heard over a crowd.
I hear each tear falling on their face,
When my name is said aloud.
I watch them stumble through each day
As they wish the day would end.
And I hear each tear falling on their face
As they talk of me with their friends.
But there are few who truly understand.
This I've heard them proclaim.
And I hear each tear falling on their face.
Will my family ever be the same?
I know that their smile's could light up the sky,
But I don't see them smileing today.
But I hear each tear falling on their face,
and their blue skies have turned to grey.
I send my family hugs full of love
with the rays of the morning sun.
Then I won't hear tear's falling on their face's
For I shall erase them one by one.
Yes my family don't know I'm watching them,
But I'm watching them just the same.
And when I hear a tear fall on their face
I softly whisper their name
Till we meet again
Don't let the tears fall down your face
I am watching and waiting
Love BERNARD xxxxx
Thank you for all your surport words could never describe how we feel about the candles pictures & tributes we are getting for our angels and also the true friends we have made on this site thank you xxxxx
To My Special Friend
♥Sometimes♥
♥Sometimes when you cry no one sees your tears♥
♥When your worried no one sees your pain♥
♥When your happy no one sees your smile♥
♥When your thinking no one is about♥
♥When you want to talk no one is around♥
♥When you need a special friend♥
♥Im always here to lend a hand♥
♥No matter were you are or how far♥
♥just give me a call and i will be there♥
♥Send this to someone special♥
♥I JUST DID♥
LOVE ALWAYS SANDRA, MICHAELA & OUR ANGELS PETER, DAVID & VIOLET XXXXX
To my friend.xxxx
GOD,
*.*.*.OPENED
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* * .* *.*.*.* OF HEAVEN.
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. (... *.*.*.**.*.*.*AND ASKED,
..*(...) .*.*.*.*.* **.*. *WHAT IS YOUR
* ....(...) * . * . * .* *PRAYER
* .*.. *....* (...) * .*FOR
.. *..(...). *....* .*TODAY?
.* ... *.... * *. * . * .**I
. * . * . . * . *.*. * . **ANSWERED:
__00000___00000 *.*. * .* .*GOD
_0000000_0000000. * . * .*TAKE
_0000 OOOO 00000. * . * .*CARE
__0000000000000 * . ** .*OF THE
___00000000000 * . *. * . * .*PERSON
_____0000000 * . *. * . ** *.*THAT
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________0* . * .. ** .. * .*.*READING
. * .. ** .. * . * . * .* . *.*THIS
. * . (.. *** /) * .*.*MESSAGE
* . * ( ..(_)/ ) * * .BECAUSE
* . * (_ /|.. _) . **.* THIS PERSON IS
* . * . /___.. * . .* .*SO
. * * . * . * *SPECIAL
♥Sometimes♥
♥Sometimes when you cry no one sees your tears♥
♥When your worried no one sees your pain♥
♥When your happy no one sees your smile♥
♥When your thinking no one is about♥
♥When you want to talk no one is around♥
♥When you need a special friend♥
♥I’m always here to lend a had♥
♥No matter were you are or how far♥
♥just give me a call and i will be there♥
♥Send this to someone special♥♥
♥I JUST DID,
♥
Angels
There are angels in the Heavens,
There are angels on the ground.
There are angels all around you,
Just waiting to be found.
So when you are feeling lonely
Or just a little blue,
Open your eyes to see the angels,
They are there, waiting for you.
Don't forget about these angels
During all of your good times too,
For they like to share your happiness
And the joys that come to you.
They will wrap their wings around you,
To protect and guide you through
All the sad and tragic moments
That this life can throw at you.
They are sent to you from Heaven
From our Father up above,
So remember to look for the angels.
They'll show you all God's Love.
LOVE Henry~Henry jur
A FRIEND IS A TREASURE
A friend is someone we turn to
When our spirits need a lift,
A friend is someone we treasure
For our friendship is a gift,
A friend is someone who fills our lives
With beauty, joy, and grace
And makes the world we live in
A better and happier place
WITH LOVE FROM TINA ALWAYS
I have a little Angel She way up in the sky ,
Ive told Her to watch over you ,She replied ok But why ?
I told Her i really love you , you mean so much To me ,She said Shell take much care of you , to How your life should be ,
So when you feel the warmth at night ,Shes Letting you know Shes near ,
Shes right beside where ever you go ,
Shell wipe away all your tears
Send this on to your special friends and family You really love !
Let them know you Love them
I JUST DID !!!!!!!!!!
THIS WAS SENT TO ME YESTERDAY BY MY SISTER AND I FEEL I WANT TO SHARE WITH ALL MY GTS FRIENDS WHO MEAN SO MUCH TO ME TAKE CARE GOD BLESS ...ALL MY LOVE HUGS KISSES FROM TINA ..
Pass this on to all your close friends
I recieved this lovely poem today
I would like to share it with you
Its just a way of saying Im grateful
For everything you do
If I could build a mountain
You could call your very own;
A place to find serenity,
A place to be alone.
If I could take your troubles
I would toss them in the sea,
But all these things I'm finding
are impossible for me.
I cannot build a mountain
Or catch a rainbow fair,
But let me be what I know best,
A friend who's always there.
Thank you for your support
henry~henry jur
WITH LOVE PAULINE FROM TINA ALWAYS
GOD KNOWS WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH
When you are tired and discouraged from fruitless efforts ,God knows how hard you have tried.. When you have cried so long and your heart"s in anguish
God has counted your tears ..If you feel your life is on hold , And time has passed you by God is waiting with you ....When your lonely and your friends are too busy even for a phone call God is by your side ...When you think you have tried everything and dont know were to turn God has a solution .....When nothing makes sense and you are confused or frustrated God has the answer....When things are going well and you have much to be thankfull for God has blessed you ....
When something joyous happens and you are filled with awe God has smiled on you ....When you have a purpose to fulfill and a dream to follow God has opened your eyes and called you by name ...WERE EVER YOU ARE OR WHAT EVER YOUR FACING ..... GOD KNOWS .
ALL MY LOVE HUGS KISSES FROM TINA ALWAYS
pennies from heaven
Found a penny today
laying on the ground
but its not just a penny
this little coin I found
Pennies come from heaven
that's what I was always told
They say angels toss them down
oh, how I love this story
They say when an Angel misses you
They toss a penny down
sometimes just to cheer you up
To make a smile out of a frown
So, don't pass by that penny
When you're feeling blue
It may be a penny from Heaven
That your Bernard tossed to you
THANK YOU FOR BEING YOU XXXXX
To My Special Friend
26th Oct 2008
05:22
♥Sometimes♥
♥Sometimes when you cry no one sees your tears♥
♥When your worried no one sees your pain♥
♥When your happy no one sees your smile♥
♥When your thinking no one is about♥
♥When you want to talk no one is around♥
♥When you need a special friend♥
♥Im always here to lend a hand♥
♥No matter were you are or how far♥
♥just give me a call and i will be there♥
♥Send this to someone special♥
♥I JUST DID♥
Thanks For Your Support It Means So Much.
Love Always Your Friends Henry~Henry jur
To My Special Friend
♥Sometimes♥
♥Sometimes when you cry no one sees your tears♥
♥When your worried no one sees your pain♥
♥When your happy no one sees your smile♥
♥When your thinking no one is about♥
♥When you want to talk no one is around♥
♥When you need a special friend♥
♥Im always here to lend a hand♥
♥No matter were you are or how far♥
♥just give me a call and i will be there♥
♥Send this to someone special♥
♥I JUST DID♥
Thanks For Your Support It Means So Much.Love Always Your Friend Sandra xxxx
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